I’m a husband, father, son, brother, and a son of God. I’ve struggle for years with sexual addiction, leaving my wife and kids in the wake of the aftermath. In the short 32 years of my life, I’ve lied more times than I can remember, hurt my wife on countless occasions, and sinned against God time and time again. All of this has led to two separations from my wife, and two excommunications from my church, and an unbridgeable emotional chasm in my marriage.

I have long defined myself by my weaknesses and mistakes. Having confined my identity and worth to a few negative descriptors, I found myself unlovable, unforgivable, unworthy and undeserving of anything good in my life, even my own family.

I never thought in a million years I’d be where I am and do what I’ve done. My careless behavior and the hurt I brought upon was completely contrary to the real me and my strong faith in God. And those careless actions coupled with that faith in God created an immense amount of shame that drove me deeper into addiction and farther away from God. So far deep that the only feelings familiar to me were emptiness, shame, worthlessness, and abandonment. Happiness and peace were so far gone.

After years of halfheartedly and dishonestly approaching recovery, I’m finally figuring out how to break down the wall I erected between God and me. The progress I’m discovering I’m capable of is motivating me to share my experiences and help anyone that is struggling in their own process of healing.